i don't care one way or another

 I hope this happens to you

I swear

I hope your heart bursts in a good way

I hope you meet someone you makes you do all those things you've only read about or would have if you read

I hope you stop eating your heart out and save a little of your appetite for something good

remember good?

I thought we had it and maybe we did

maybe we didn't

we did

but we don’t

well here's some news I hope you can't take:

I'm happy 

I'm overwhelmed

I never made a mistake but I made choices that worked out some other way and now I'm here writing something for you to never read

get well soon

please

in the meantime 

know that love always runs the risk of turning into the biggest mistake you’ve ever made

but it's the only thing worth the trouble it might cause

or so i said to myself about you then as your misery swallowed you like the ocean and i watched from the shore 

you know what they say about people drowning

they say watch them die

well i watch no more

oh yeah

did i forget to mention

how happy i am?