pain or something like it

i can open myself up and sew myself shut
i know what pain can do to a person
i can keep my children quiet in church
i eat breakfast in the family plot
i am dancing alone on the edge of a knife

some people rewire their heads and pain turns into something else
something different but better
better than everything

and your pain is irrelevant because you don't understand
you don't understand how irrelevant your pain is
your grief feels enormous
but it weighs nothing
it weighs nothing at all

your grief weighs nothing at all
why doesn't that comfort you?

there is a demon that laughs when you cry
and he is I.