hot in high school

i've been looking at pictures of girls who were hot in high school
and seeing how not hot they have gotten
or how they've had a kid or gotten married

i've been looking at pictures of girls who weren't hot in high school
and seeing how not hot they have stayed
or how they've had a kid or gotten married

and i wonder what it's like to be a woman
and watch my face twist and limbs grow fatter
as a small child whose father i know or don't know or both climbs all over me
spilling apple juice and saying their first words
taking their first steps and cracking their head on the coffee table

i wonder if i will stop being young
thinking about doing drugs
playing in bands
requesting off for parties
or whatever it is

hot high school girls
they peak early
and are led into pregnancy or marriage before the chance to ruin themselves in a funner way

i was not hot in high school
and i have stayed unpregnant and unwed
and there are mistakes i have yet to make
that make my cock swell with enthusiasm
the way those pictures could never